motherhood

being a mom is wonderful. i feel like i have so much purpose to my life now that i am a mother. i've also learned in my short 11 months that being a mother is challenging and i know there will be more challenging days ahead, but this past week has definitely been the most challenging thus far. greyson has been sick. i've been torn each day whether or not to stay home with him or go to work. i feel more at peace because he is with my mom but it is still heart wrenching to feel his hands cling to me and cry when i drop him off. he just wants his mama (and i don't blame him:) ). he started getting sick wednesday night and by saturday morning we decided to take him to the doctor. john had to take him, because during the night, i also got sick (along with my mom, dad, and brother). the doctor assured john he was fine, that he wasn't dehydrated and the only thing we could do is give him as much liquids as we could. well by saturday afternoon, we were laughing that we took him to the doctor because he seemed just fine. unfortunately, he made a turn for the worse this morning. he has only thrown up once, but now it's nonstop from the other end (i'm trying to not be gross for those who are weak stomached!). he cries his little eyes out each time i lay him to change him and his little tush is bright red. i hate seeing him in so much pain...i just wish there was more i could do. please say a little prayer for healing and for comfort. my little guy needs to get better. i don't know how much more this mother can take...